Monday, August 22, 2005
why do things that matter the most,
never end up coming closei had this dream last night
i dreamt that i had to fight for my life, i was in a either-you-die-or-i-die situation
and im kinda shocked how shrewd i can get when threatened.
this guy had a gun and he fired.
but the gun was faulty, and i managed to get another gun and killed him.
and.. to live, another person had to die for me
i didnt finch when i saw the person die, and i just stared, i just stared.....
he wasnt just some birdy, hes someone dear to me...
i can still rmb the scene where he was shot from the back
my ally (i supppose) whispered 'i ll kill him now so you can live'
he kneeled, and when he didnt die as fast as expected another shot was delivered
he puked a whole lot of blood
and thats the first time i saw smth so awful happen..
it sounds weird but.. i do have prophetic dreams.. sometimes
coz i learnt how to dream O_O...
has it come to a point where nth matters anymore?
look what holding on has done, it has gotten me no where
and i know i dont have the strength to hold on forever...
10:34 PM
